Carmen,
Im sorry that you were so young when you last saw your Dad
I guess I was fortunate in that I was in my early twenties when my Dad died..
But as he died over on PEI while visiting is family (for the last time) and due to come back to Mum and I in England, we never were able to pay our respects , so last year when I went back to the Island, that was when I went to my Dads Grave and cried and cried....
Then a couple of days later I walked alone down that lovely country lane to pay my respects to my Dad once more, though this time while on my knees for over an hour (still sore)
I talked to my Dad and told him all I could, funny lot us daughters arent we?
Carmen you give in to that "powerful urge" to visit your Fathers Grave...otherwise I dont think you could ever forgive yourself.......
And shall you and I go on the John Edward show

and wouldnt it be so funny if two Fathers came through for their daughters, you and me
All The Best,
Hilary.